Happy 1st Birthday to Evan!

My goodness I’ve been neglecting this blog for quite some time. I really don’t have any excuse other than life has just been busy and I’ve kind of been at a loss for anything to write about. A quick recap of the last few months would be that we are now expecting again! We found out a couple weeks ago that it’s another boy. As of right now all looks good with the baby, but prayers are always welcome! It’s already been a roller coaster and I am sure it will continue to be until the very end! I told someone the other day that I haven’t really been able to breathe easy and I don’t think I will until I hold a healthy baby in my arms. Our doctor described it as having PTSD. Which is a great way to put it. Please pray for a healthy baby and for our peace of mind. We trust our doctors implicitly and most of all, trust God. That doesn’t mean that there isn’t a level of fear though. Here’s a picture from last week. (It’s true what they say about getting bigger, quicker with the 2nd pregnancy!) I can only imagine what I’ll look like come August! All will be worth it though.

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Today marks one year ago that Evan made his grand entrance. That day was such a blur to me. It’s hard to believe that it has been one whole year! We are definitely missing him today but I keep thinking that he is doing far more celebrating than we would be doing if he were here with us. That doesn’t make the hurt any less but it brings a level of comfort. Brent took the day off so we could spend it together. We have just been ┬áhanging out this morning. In a little while we are going to head to the cemetery with some balloons and flowers and a candle to celebrate the birthday of our precious baby boy. Then we are going to spend the day together. I’ve prayed to God to make this day as easy as possible and I definitely feel that my prayers have been answered. There was a time that I didn’t know if I would even be able to get out of bed today. God gives me strength that I never realized I could have. Everyone please say a little prayer for us today. Have a great weekend.

Here’s a picture from last year (March 16) when I first saw Evan, outside of the operating room that is. It’s amazing that this was a year ago. I remember it like it was yesterday. I had been stuck in my room for almost 24 hours and this was the first time I was able to get up to the NICU to see him. It was so awesome because as soon as he heard my voice he started kicking his legs and moving his arms. Warmed this mama’s heart! Miss and love this sweet baby!

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EVAN IN HEAVEN!!! Mommy and Daddy miss and love you so much. (but we know you are in the best place possible.) Love sent from Earth until we can see you again!